tinkerbelle

Excuse my lack of enthusiasm I guess my expectations were too high. Everywhere I turn Everything\'s the same: Another innocent victim, A pawn in a fucked up game. Black and blue and bits of grey It\'s always there, It never goes away. I close my eyes and try to see What little hope you\'ve left for me In a world so cold So dark, alone. I\'ve lost my light, I\'ve lost my home. Death, despair The final curtain call. I need to know - Will you break my fall?

Hand in hand Walking through this dream called life It amazes me to think I used to consider it a nightmare. That was before I met my angel, My beautiful saviour Who filled my empty heart With pure, undying love. Smiles Were always few and far between, Now I can\'t seem to get rid of them! I wouldn\'t want to, even if I could. This feeling, This glowing warmth That travels through my veins, Radiates and reflects His beautiful soul. He has given me the key - I am still confused as to Why he chose me to be The keeper of his heart, But I accept the job without complaint. Lost for miles In his crystal eyes, I never want t

Time stands still But goes way too fast - In the blink of an eye An hour has passed. The night is long [not near long enough] Darkness rips out my insides With my dreams that she crushed. Push aside the sorrow; I stare at the wall. Something vital breaks And the tears start to fall. I try to think back To when all this was gone. It\'s too late now, I\'ve been drowning too long.

This feeling in my chest, It won't disappear. Razorblades and roses, Nothing is clear. My fist to her face. Immaculate fear Rising in my throat It burns and it sears. Sticks and stones Bones reflected in mirrors. Black-cloud sky, Death is near. The same thing happens Year after year... This hurts my heart I want you here.

For a thousand miles all around, all she could see was the blinding white darkness.  Her feet crept closer to the edge of the jagged cliff, plunging into nothingness.  She blinked away the last specks of ivory, and her eyes focused.  Had she been dreaming?  No, her eyes had never closed.  Slowly she became aware of a dull buzzing noise... it gradually grew and she recognized the sound of laughter.  Her fiery green eyes examined the room more closely, and the specks became silk.  Faces were smiling and dancing while the silk spun around them in vicious tornadoes.  Their hollow black eyes never turned her way; the laughter never invited her in.

You never wanted this. It's one of those it-won't-happen-to-me situations. The model's pretty face smiles up at you from the page of your magazine and you think, "How disgusting," as your eyes take in every inch of her perfectly airbrushed body. Before you know it, they're everywhere: skeletons with blindingly white teeth and shimmering blonde hair, begging you to buy various perfumes and designer jeans. You catch yourself staring at your reflection a little longer, only wearing certain colours, and eating meals in smaller portions. You pinch your stomach and say to yourself, "I guess it couldn't hurt to lose a few pounds." Everything become

I can't blame you for the harsh words And I can't blame you for the anger, But who will you run to the next time That he breaks your heart? I've learned my lesson, Now you can learn yours. I wasted six years of my life Trying to make things work out - What did you do? You only offered your hand When it was convenient to you. [It was always about you] If I tried to defend myself Then instantly I was in the red. Black and blue is all you ever gave, Disguised as laughter and love. I'm done. This was dead years ago - So what took us so long?

Take one last look at these eyes, I'm sure you can see the torment you created Mixing with the confusion and pain and broken dreams Behind a sea of hazel green. Look at these arms, The ones I so foolishly held open time after time As you skillfully branded them with shades of purple and red. Then there are the scars not visible; So many of your needle-tipped prevarications Have found my heart to be a useful target. The stars don't shine quite so radiantly anymore; The night air is cold and unpleasant. And yet, in this moment I am free from everything. This is where I take control of my own life again, I'm finally doing what I fe

All that I want Is all that I need, And all that I need Is so far away. My body physically aches - My arms cry out into silence, Begging to be filled. All they find is emptiness; It tears through my veins And fills my lungs, Clouds my brain until I explode - The pain finally exiting in the form Of tiny droplets giving way to rivers. The earthquakes manifest my every muscle And all I can do Is let my consciousness give way To hazy images, disappearing quickly. Reminders that when I awake I am left with nothing. You are my everything, But I have nothing.